Possible Lead

When I was at Greg's funeral, I met a number of fellow officers of his department. I made sure to take aside a detective who I knew to be one of his closest buddies and asked to be apprised of any meaningful developments in the hunt for his killer.

This morning I received a message on my home answering machine from this detective that the had a very good lead on who the killer is believed to be, but that the guy appears to have gone to ground and was making himself very scarce. It took all of my willpower not to get in my vehicle and start the long drive tonight when I got home and heard the message.

But I need to stick around here to keep an eye on Greg and his transition. Today, we laid out his body on this special metallic table that is very maneuverable--it can be moved relatively easily between the various large machines that are needed to complete the preparations of the body. They have started the chemical treatments on his skin and musculature. Later next week they will start on his bones. My window of opportunity to end this process is going to be short.

Today, I spent some more quiet time with communicating with Greg's spirit, trying to feel out how sure he is of his desire to end the process and move on to the next world. I tried to play Devil's Advocate with him to see if I could convince him to ride out these doubts. No dice. He desperately wants to move on and to be done with this whole process. The longer I spoke with him, the surer I became of the strength and depth of his feelings.

I want to help him. But something tells me that I need more info. I hope that detective can track down that killer and get some solid information from him. It would make my decision much easier.

Speaking of following up leads, I need to pick up my own case when I have a chance. After this situation with Greg plays out, I need to see about getting transferred back to Michigan so I can find my own killers and settle some debts that are way overdue.

I apologize for the disjointed nature of these last couple of entries...but with the decision about whether to help Greg in the way he wants me to weighing on my mind, I can't seem to focus properly.